Where, ‘oh where’ has thegraffitihunter gone?
It’s as though I don’t have time anymore for what once gave me great enjoyment and a lust for life.
Or maybe it’s just that I don’t take the time…
It’s so easy to get wrapped up in other people’s lives, their pursuits, their goals…that we start to lose ourselves.
This has happened to me before and things did not turn out too well, so I woke up this morning with a sound resolution to not let it happen ever again.
It’s a wee bit early for New Year’s resolutions and quite frankly I never did like the idea of making them nor the promise to make such imaginary changes just because it’s a new year.
Firstly, it’s never a good idea to view making improvements as ‘giving something up’.
I think of quitting smoking, cutting back on this, that and much of the other as examples of New Years’ resolutions that I have attempted and failed at miserably in the past…
It has always made me feel like I’m depriving myself of something that I enjoy…that I’m not totally in to or 100% about changing that certain something regarding myself which would purely and ultimately do me nothing but good and serve me well to heed.
Secondly, self improvements should be considered and planned upon every day of the year and not just prior to an annual event. I have always approached life like this, invariably to the point of ad nauseam because too much self-reflection can make you so ‘sickenly’ self-absorbed.
Often, I have found that this time sets my mind in a whirl. Perhaps it causes me to focus too much on negativity instead of projecting a positive vibe, seeing the good or the best, in every situation even if my approach wasn’t the greatest.
But at the end of the day, when all is said and done, I do like to ponder the days events. Achievements, disappointments, mistakes and day-to-day interactions with others. Could I have reacted in a better way, avoided certain errors, been a little bit nicer?
My answer to myself is always a resounding ‘YES’.
Time spent on self-reflection is a very healthy activity. It constantly reinforces the need to be a much better person, to always treat people as you would want to be treated…
I have spent the past couple of weeks surrounded by people, people from all walks of life…they are nearly all complete strangers. People I am meeting for the first time…
People with their each and own unique view on what should be or shouldn’t have ever been…
Some I couldn’t agree with more, many I simply nodded and let them take their stand, realizing that our worlds could not have been any further apart or different. But I let them say their piece, allowed the time for their opinions to flow unobstructed and free of my own feelings…
My only wish is that they too, at the end of the day, take time to reflect on their own actions and interactions with others. And that they too, make the decision to constantly improve themselves and strive to do better at their treatment of others.
That they too, incorporate a daily reflection upon their human interactions and always look for ways to make improvements.
Hopefully, they won’t wait until the start of a new year.
Meanwhile, I had better get up out of here and start re-exploring and re-discovering my passion…
Afterall, I have long called my graffiti hunting and photography trips my one true anti-depressant and right now the medication sure as hell isn’t working….